He is looking for a girl, who does not know he exists, or the story that has brought him here. He has no reason to be discreet, but still he has to be careful. He is standing near the doorway and surveying the golden banquet hall, which is filled with refined bodies in saris and jackets, and beautiful young women with straight hair who never make facial expressions. But they will, soon. Any moment now.

He could not see the women clearly, and was not sure if the girl would actually come there. He had been told to be patient, to keep looking for her. He remembered her face, but had not been allowed to take the photograph. He had to memorise the face. It took him two whole days, but he had memorised it.  The sound of a gong alerted the audience to the commencement of the dance. The room fell silent. The flexible bodies of dancers swayed in tune to the music, their gestures, postures, and facial expressions all together depicting the epic Ramayana. A glint of steel caught his eye and before he could place from which dancer it had come, they had all turned away from him. He was somehow sure that she was among them. It was a two-day symposium on ancient forms of dance and music, and artistes from all parts of the world had come.  But the music had become faster now and dancers kept pace with it – their quick movements and identical costumes making it difficult to focus.

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Death – Coming to Terms with it

Death is always painful, especially if its our father. This is just my effort to cope with loss of my father and father in law within a span of 3 months.

Long after our eyes dry up, and there are no longer tears gushing out of our eyes, months after than the actual loss of our loved one, when everyone around us thinks that we are back to normal life, we have successfully coped with the tragedy, memories of our dear one comes flooding to our mind.

I have been going through this now and then. Its not how its shown in movies, i realised! I don’t start crying when i see the photograph, no – its not the snaps!

Its those small hardly noticeable incidents, objects, sometimes TV shows or ads!! Infact a few days back i broke into tears when i saw an envelope in which my father had written my address and the Vicks balm that my father-in-law was fond of during his last days! Its hard to believe even now that they are no more with us.

Though, I have accepted the truth that they have left us, yet many a time i fervently wish they had not left us, especially since I was so dependent on them especially for decision making. The vacuum created by their loss is still very much there. Maybe with time the pain associated with their loss will slowly give way to fond memories….

After a Loooong Gap

Sitting down to write, or rather scribble after a really long gap. All these days have been quite sad – for us and for our near and dear ones.  Death grabbed a few dear people away from me. It was an ordeal, to again and again face the loss. Hard to accept that they will no longer be there in our lives. But even amidst this deep sorrow i realised that life has to go on, no matter what happens – the world moves on unaffected by our loss, and so should I.

I felt that writing, would somehow help me overcome the grief, make me come to terms with the loss. On the whole 2019 has been a very bad year for our family…

hoping for the light at the end of the dark tunnel….

Some Inspiring Books

This post in response to the post by calmkate.

Some of the most inspiring books which I loved and would read any number of times:

  • Jonathan Livingston Seagull

Author : Richard Bach

Published by : Macmillan

Year of Publication:1970

This a story of a seagull who soars to great heights. It inspires to strive for excellence.

  •  Illusions

Author : Richard Bach

Published by : Dell Publishing Co., Inc.

Year of Publication : 1977

This is a story of a different type of messiah.


  •  A Town Like Alice

Author : Nevil Shute

Published by :Heinemann

Year of Publication : 1950

A love story that blossoms during war. A very moving story.

  • Congo

Author : Michael Crichton

Published by : Knopf

Year of Publication : 1980

Its just a science fiction novel. But a real thriller.

  • Memoirs of a Geisha

Author : Arthur Golden

Published by :Alfred A. Knopf

Year of Publication : 1997

This book takes us to a different culture and the life of a young girl and her determination.

  •  Goat Days  

Author : Benyamin

Translated by : Joseph Koyippally

Published by : Penguin Books

Year of Publication : 2012

This tells about the hardships that a migrant labourer has to undergo in Saudi Arabia. It was originally written in Malayalam (Aadujeevitham), later translated into English. This is based on real life events of the author. This book reaffirms ones faith in God.


If you have read any of these, and like it too, do post in the comments. If you happen to read any of these books after reading my post, do let me know about that too.


via Daily Prompt: Awkward

She had always been mocked, made fun of by everyone. As a child, these had hurt her, she had sought solace in a world of her own… Her tears had not solved her problem, nor had her introversion. Nothing could change her awkward gait, nothing could change her birth defect.

At some point of time, she had got a good friend, a friend who looked at who she was and not her physical deformities… Her friend had taught her to smile, to laugh and to ignore all those jibes…She realised that God had made her with an awkward gait, but God had made them all with an awkward mind and unkind thoughts. She felt pity for them.

Parallel Lines

via Daily Prompt: Skewed

The first line continued to move as a straight line. The second, when it began its journey, became a straight line parallel to the first one. They moved ahead together, not crossing each other, no conflicts, peacefully parallel.

And then one line skewed. Should the other too follow, so that peace continue? Well, no…that is not what happened… the skewed line was made to understand its mistake, and revert to the straight path… so they continued their peaceful journey…

The lines are the lives of a husband and wife… its also my family life…